My heart.

There's one point of time, i really gave up after breakdowns and doing so much, even more than what a APM should do. I tell myself to stop bothering about it, did not be soft-hearted and everything. I really did it. At that point of time, I really just do my part as aAPM which define in Driving Committee that is to assist Programme Manager. Since Programme Manager did not ask me to help him, i really do not see the point of me doing so much.

I'm not trying to be calculative here, but the fact is that Programme Manager is not even doing what he should do, why should i do so much. Somemore, Stage Manager is the one that is doing most of the thing with no complaining when the job, by right should be split among the two of them. Of course get assist from both ASM and APM. The sad thing is that ASM did not really assist Stage manager.

How sad.
ASM have quite a good Stage Manager yet did not cherish it and left he "suffer" alone.
Programme Manager not doing anything to work hand in hand with Stage Manager.
How unfair.

Somehow Stage Manager is working and suffering alone through those nights when i gave up in my heart. I'm guilty seeing he working alone so i offered my help as and when i can, afterall i'm still one of the In-Charge. I would not want to see he suffer alone. Being a good Stage Manager, he know i been through some hardship and was stress then, that's why he dare not ask me for help.


Though, i gave up a little, not doing as much as in the past, but i still do my best for Everything.

Like last friday, i have 4 hours to tend the registration booth. Asked ZeRong and Leo to pull people to join and give out flyers. Starting i only dare to approach those i know one and closely to those strangers and asked them whether do they want to join VoiceOut, it's a singing competition. Give out flyers and pester them a little. Of course, only like a few joined and most rejected me.
Within that 4 hours, managed to get 8 people to join. I was so happy and high about it. Because Zerong, Leo, ZaiYong and me tried our best and we get 8 to join us in that afternoon. PLus 4 in the morning and 5 over at the Booth B. We got a total of 17 people to join on friday.
all together now, there are 25 solo contestants and 6 duet contestants. Still need of duet contestants. Gonna pester ppl to join during my shift for that 1 hour.


Even though, i gave up but i am still doing my best for VoiceOut.

Just like Senior Jade told me, Jia You! It's your event.
Senior Richard, Always there to take care of our Welfare. Always give us clue on what we still need to work on. Of course, Teach me those MS Word skill.


Those words made me strong a little.


on 25 may 2008, 10:31:13 PM, Richard asked how's JJ. I was speechless because i realised over the weekend i did not have time to touch VoiceOut stuff. Left alone, welfare of VoiceOut member. I was even more guilty than before. went to talk to JJ and helped him a little on VoiceOut stuff. Demand him to re-update me about VoiceOut stuff because i had lost the momentum after i gave up. As told to him that, i would assist him. Up-to-date information is needed to assist someone.

Therefore, I had decided to assist Stage Manager all the way and give my best for VoiceOut 2008/09 and make it a successful one.